Sometimes I think about different laughs and the intent behind them.  My favorite is accidentally laughing out loud.

It is so horrendous and obnoxious but none the less heart warming and cheerful.

I sit in solidarity only because I'm forced.

Otherwise, I'd be giggling with company, comparing jokes trying to out wit the next.

This is jail for ya.

Cold happy-less misery.

My hands are tied only for the time being.  I couldn't even help myself if I wanted to.

In these moments I pray and I pray hard, begging God to teach me a better way.

There is no hope for a sinner only death.

Making my way through the litter in the world. Tons of trash surrounding me but not suffocating my goal. No one but me will understand how infuriating it is to contain my desperation for peace.

Lost in the mess of chaos of unwanted and mis-disposed belongings. The liter has consumed my brain. Now I suffer with a fear of change. The point where I decided to finish my mission was when I saw a placement of wrappers and Styrofoam cups all bent out of shape. There was an image. An image of a giant ladybug. This sign made my heart sink. Knowing there's a place where cute ladybugs exist, but I will never see them.